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My Song
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『Before Dawn and Daybreak』
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Thursday - 04:52 comments(0) - by Yamasu Rui
I woke up earlier than the sunrise
Because of a special sound
In a pitch-black room, a song playing in both ears
I got up and opened the window
Because I felt like I was going to overheat
My eardrums vibrate, making both ears feel hot
The cold air rushes in, the scent of navy blue
Just this sound leaking out feels like it could change the world
It is amazing
I took off my earphones immediately
Because I couldn't take it anymore
In a pitch-black room, the screen glows as if hurrying me
My thumb stops there
Because I read the characters in the top left
My heartbeat is loud, I hold my left chest
“What time do you think it is?” “Hello, good morning.”
I try repeating it, the button feels like a bomb's switch
It is scary
The first greeting went well
Because I had practiced properly
In a pitch-black room, a voice strokes my right ear
I closed the window in a hurry
Because I wanted to keep it locked inside
Everything, even my breathing, inside this room
A raspy voice, the sound of breathing, the sound of rubbing my toes
There isn't a single other sound
It feels like there are only two people in the world, or something like that
I wonder what would happen if that were really true, or something like that
Even though I know it can't come true
Forgive me for hoping just a little bit
I ended the call in a little over 55 seconds
Because I felt like I wouldn't be able to turn back
In a pitch-black room, the end-call tone echoes like a lingering memory
I let it stop on its own
Because I hated to let go
Even things like this, all of it, I am a bad person
‘You worked hard’ ‘It’s okay’ ‘It wasn’t a mistake’
So much other kindness was ringing out
If that girl can be praised, or something like that
“Actually, I’ve had it all along too,” or something like that
Even though I know it won't be granted
Forgive me for wanting to be patted just a little bit
When I put it all together
The words that spilled from my mouth were
“I’m so jealous,” like a child
“I see,” like that guy
Smiling a little
What spilled from my eyes was...
No
“I just yawned”
I tell myself
I wipe it gently and pretend it never happened
Right now it is before dawn
It is not bright yet
But since you gave me the spark
I will bring the daybreak
To you and your precious person
I will bring the daybreak
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